I have two doctors, a wonderful GP (D1), actually rephrase that she is absolutely incredible and also a psychologist (D2). Both are trying really hard to help me find me as I have no freaking idea! How about you fellow sufferers? What are your core beliefs? Part of this finding me exercise is identifying my… Read More Core beliefs: A completely distorted sense of self
I am finding this socialising thing a tough challenge on so many levels. How do you socialise when you have BPD? To socialise successfully, you need a clear identity. Don’t you? A strong sense of self? Or is that just me? One of my warped perceptions? How do I know? What is real and what… Read More Identity distortion and socialising issues
There is living with BPD but dissociating, then finding yourself living with BPD and suddenly aware. You’d think awareness is a good thing, but right now, awareness is frightening. I’m a few weeks into DBT, and although I’m assured this will help me, the space I’m in right now is confronting, terrifying as I see… Read More Aware and incapable
TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm When D1 (my first doctor) first asked me if I self-harmed, I immediately assumed she meant cutting myself. I confessed that I had, but not since I was about twelve years old. A few weeks later, after starting DBT, I realised the awful truth. I self-harm almost daily. I am a living,… Read More What is self-harm and why do we do it?
Well if you are into the cold, harsh, clinical definitions check out the official diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder below. Doesn’t really sound that great from a lay person’s perspective, does it? And trust me, as a sufferer it’s horrible to recognise yourself in this. The diagnostic criteria are so dehumanising, and as someone… Read More Borderline Personality Disorder: What is it?