BPD, Depression, Mental health

Bad days

One of the most difficult things to manage with BPD are random bad days. Those days when I get up and for no apparent reason, feel absolutely crushed. The Big D or Black Dog just sits there, and all I can think about is how and when to end it. Yeah. Those days are not… Read More Bad days

BPD, Identity, Mental health

I am liquid

That’s what I told my GP yesterday, “I can’t because I am liquid.” She was trying to get to the bottom of my belief structure. But I don’t have a real, robust and tangible belief structure. It is fluid. What I have is a lifetime of being told what things are and what things I… Read More I am liquid

BPD, Depression, Mental health

Betrayed

Betrayed. I feel so utterly and completely hurt and betrayed right now. I have no idea where to put all this hurt anymore. No idea at all. It seems that nothing I can ever do or say is right in this world. How am I supposed to get better if I don’t get a reprieve… Read More Betrayed