Now I’ve known for a long time that I have PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, but it’s only in the last year that I found out there were two types and that typically, I have the complex version. Sigh! PTSD is what most people associate with returning war veterans and others, who are more… Read More Complex PTSD
Who is my enemy? My enemy is within. TRIGGER WARNING – Mentions of self-harm and suicidality. When I first came out and told people I had BPD, everyone was surprised. Because I am seen as strong. I am seen as a coper. I am seen as capable. I have always been able to stand up… Read More Learning to love your enemy
Suicide. Tough discussion right? Depression and BPD are potentially fatal. I don’t know the stats for suicide with depression but one in ten – that’s 10% of BPD sufferers successfully take their own lives. A frightening statistic eh? What’s scary with BPD is that you can be fine one moment, going about your daily business… Read More Suicide: How to make a plan to not kill yourself
There is living with BPD but dissociating, then finding yourself living with BPD and suddenly aware. You’d think awareness is a good thing, but right now, awareness is frightening. I’m a few weeks into DBT, and although I’m assured this will help me, the space I’m in right now is confronting, terrifying as I see… Read More Aware and incapable
TRIGGER WARNING: Self-harm When D1 (my first doctor) first asked me if I self-harmed, I immediately assumed she meant cutting myself. I confessed that I had, but not since I was about twelve years old. A few weeks later, after starting DBT, I realised the awful truth. I self-harm almost daily. I am a living,… Read More What is self-harm and why do we do it?
Well if you are into the cold, harsh, clinical definitions check out the official diagnostic criteria for Borderline Personality Disorder below. Doesn’t really sound that great from a lay person’s perspective, does it? And trust me, as a sufferer it’s horrible to recognise yourself in this. The diagnostic criteria are so dehumanising, and as someone… Read More Borderline Personality Disorder: What is it?